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How much you do not know yourself = the amount of pain you experience. But in some periods there is more of it, in others less. So the distortion in the way you see yourself would be more accurate to show as a gradient with variables.
To define current values, it is necessary to decompose the pain:
1. OF THE PAST:
1.1. what would my score be if:
0 – I remember very little; my whole past is like a list of random dates from a history textbook / a summary of a video game character I’m currently playing as;
10 – I have many memories that give me strong +impressions; I would be very happy to live through my past again.
1.2. How often and how strongly have I had, and do I still have, the feeling that I’m not living my own life? (As if other behavior, thoughts, feelings, and life circumstances would feel more natural).
1.3. Have there been, and are there still, times when I get lost / sabotage / freeze up in a situation that could be called fairly ordinary?
1.4. How well do my efforts pay off in expected results?
2. OF THE PRESENT:
2.1. How is my memory doing now?
0 - the only way to remember something is to play detective, piecing things together from sent messages, photos I took, etc.;
10 - I have one clear timeline of past events, and it is easy for me to say what I did and when.
2.2. how much and what do I sabotage?
- personal and / or work goals?
- the basics? (closing the window before getting cold; going to sleep on time, resting, etc.)
2.3. my actions and decisions are based on:
- desires first, and logic only after;
- thinking about what makes sense to do now?
2.4. most of the time, I feel:
- okay :)) and better;
- okay (maybe) or worse?
2.5. do plans for the near future bring me a lot of +impressions, or do I feel neutral / apathetic, etc.?
2.6. Would I want to live through yesterday, last week, etc. again? Or were they more like a forced ad for a future film — the one I would actually want to live through again?
2.7. How often does my energy crash? Do I make up for a lack of +impressions from destructive things: reels, watching shows non-stop, chocolate, etc.?
So, the more positive the answer, the less distorted the self-image is.
*A huge number of questions can be created for decomposing pain. This list is an example.
1. OF THE PAST:
1.1. what would my score be if:
0 – I remember very little; my whole past is like a list of random dates from a history textbook / a summary of a video game character I’m currently playing as;
10 – I have many memories that give me strong +impressions; I would be very happy to live through my past again.
1.2. How often and how strongly have I had, and do I still have, the feeling that I’m not living my own life? (As if other behavior, thoughts, feelings, and life circumstances would feel more natural).
1.3. Have there been, and are there still, times when I get lost / sabotage / freeze up in a situation that could be called fairly ordinary?
1.4. How well do my efforts pay off in expected results?
2. OF THE PRESENT:
2.1. How is my memory doing now?
0 - the only way to remember something is to play detective, piecing things together from sent messages, photos I took, etc.;
10 - I have one clear timeline of past events, and it is easy for me to say what I did and when.
2.2. how much and what do I sabotage?
- personal and / or work goals?
- the basics? (closing the window before getting cold; going to sleep on time, resting, etc.)
2.3. my actions and decisions are based on:
- desires first, and logic only after;
- thinking about what makes sense to do now?
2.4. most of the time, I feel:
- okay :)) and better;
- okay (maybe) or worse?
2.5. do plans for the near future bring me a lot of +impressions, or do I feel neutral / apathetic, etc.?
2.6. Would I want to live through yesterday, last week, etc. again? Or were they more like a forced ad for a future film — the one I would actually want to live through again?
2.7. How often does my energy crash? Do I make up for a lack of +impressions from destructive things: reels, watching shows non-stop, chocolate, etc.?
So, the more positive the answer, the less distorted the self-image is.
*A huge number of questions can be created for decomposing pain. This list is an example.
